i woke up with this nagging thought at the front of my mind that refused to go away.
even singing riduculous songs couldnt keep the sound of those words replaying itself in my ears.
forcing my eyelids shut do nothing to keep that image out of my mind.

i wish i hadn't been inquisitive
i wish i didnt care
i wish that your sweet words would have been enough to dispel all that uneasiness and discomfort that i am feeling.
but it doesnt.

to put the icing on the cake
i havent a right to be this way
because simply, i have been worse.